I guess that answers that then. Can I do webdesign – no. Why? Well, I can’t have been that far out the door before the company I went to see sent of their “no, please fuck off and never come back” letter. It wouldn’t have hurt so much except for the fact that aledgedly they’re…

Well, I can’t believe it’s happened again…what? Merely a complete lack of enthusiasm for anything. I feel totally drained. I suspect this whole look cheery for work and pretend that I’m in a good mood is what does it…not that I’m actually in a bad mood you understand. Just tired of dealing with people who…

**Typed up from hand written notes….made at work!** Some days I just don’t have time for idiots! This is one of the reasons I don’t think my optimal job position is “support”! Anyway, what’s been going on to bring me to this conclusion? Indeed that’s been going on generally? Well – as I said I’ve…

Well, I thought I ought to write something up on the interview that I had on Friday. Unfortuantely there’s a problem with that…..which is….I have no idea how I did. Normally when I come out of an interview I can say “that went well”, or “that went crap”. It’s normally wildly inaccurate, but at least…

Well, with my usual high efficency I’m writing a diary entry…..for what I did at the weekend…..! Well, I wandered off to see some friends (ha, petrol crisis? what petrol crisis?) down in the Bristol area…and had a thouroughly relaxing time…I also took my main computer down, for a bit of expert advice and repair….Unfortunately…

Tired. Yes. Very, very tired. I’ve tidied my room….it took seven, count them seven hours!. I’m absolutely shattered! But…but…you can see the floor! Although the camera bag, filing box etc are occupying floor space…but never mind…Actually, I’ve just seen somewhere for the filing box to go! Anyway, what prompted this? Well, I woke up this…

Well, I’m truly shocked. There are still people reading my diary…y’know I thought you’d have all got bored by now…not only that but you do what I suggest…. How do I know this? Well James, who’s newish site (“The Dark Library”) I mentioned last time – keeps a page referal thing – and he actually…

Yes, I really should be in bed…. Just had some thoughts tho, as I completed my evening ablutions I caught sight of myself in the mirror, and I thought I looked female. But the instant I actually looked I saw male…. I thought about this and maybe I do look a bit female. Maybe. The…

It’s amazing what a difference a day can make…. I don’t actually feel more cheerful than I did yesterday. I suspect that’s being stuck in the house and not having a job. But I’m feeling a little tiny bit more convinced of my abilities with Linux, having fixed this setup which I managed to reduce…

Excuse if this page looks a little off….it’s the first one produced without the use of webprocessor. And I’m feeling really shitty so… What happened? Why am I feeling down? Well….it’s just complete lack of sucess really. I feel like I’ve been a failure…the words from Peters Friends1 seem strangely appropraite, but I need someone…