I’m feeling a lot better; which is odd, because yesterday Trey dropped a semi-bombshell; Or at least, Trey presented the possibility of the bombshell being dropped. The possibility of her not being here; which sucks; because we’re working towards friends, in fact, we are friends, but do want time to get comfortable in that.
But we’ve been talking a lot more, watching some Xena, playing Phase 10 which I was given for Xmas. I’ve started to make slow progress on my dissertation. When I’ve finished my coffee me, myself and I are going to head to university. Oh, and to the bank. Well, the post office.
Just for a laugh a bunch of payments I thought’d already gone out left my account today and yesterday wandering me past my overdraft limit. Which is a punk-ass-bitch thing of them to do; actually. Here I was feeling all smug, because I actually had enough to pay my loan payment without going overdrawn. And uh. *fzat* I’m overdrawn. Which is frustrating and a lesson in ‘pay in xmas money before spending it’.
Still.
I still feel better.
I’ve been and joined a bunch of communities on LJ – all around Canada and Vancouver and Lesbianness; someone there pointed me at this forum which is dead handy like; and just for shits and giggles I took the Canadian Skilled Worker Test; once I’ve got a years experience then I should be pretty much scoring a passmark. I get 64 now, if I brush up on my french too… Enough to take a written / reading test, that’d be good. I should perhaps do that anyway.
There’s something else for me to do.
I’m vaguely wondering if I’ve actually got relies in Canada; because my Grandparents went over there a while back, and in general they go places where there are family. So, hrm, more to think about.
I don’t feel good, not by any stretch of the imagination. But I feel ‘better’; still rather fragile, but hell it’s so much better than I have been feeling. Of course, when Trey says she’s moving away, this feeling may well vaporise in a cloud of ‘oh-shit’; but for the time being, her being here gives me something to distract from a life that could easily be just me and a PC.
Oh, and I’ve been practicing my guitar, but I may actually have to take a day off today, because my fingers are acutally still sore from the 45 minutes yesterday (an hour the day before…). Which’d be annoying. If I do, I’ll probably sit there and make chord shapes without pressing or something (yeah, like that’ll last). It’s great, because I can actually hear myself progressing each day.
