Well, today’s been a whole barrel of fun. About the time I first really started realising that I had “issues” with my gender I gained a stress related disorder. And since I was stressed a lot of the time I was ill a lot of the time. It stayed with me from my GCSE’s through university….and dissapeared when I started dealing with the gender issues.
Even the job interviews didn’t make me feel ill – unlike they used to. Unfortunately (and I’ve been noticing this for the past few days) it’s come back. With avengence. I’m not sure what to do – I think it’s the fact that I have to be ‘male’ for work which is causing it, but the only way I can do anything about that is to quit. But if I did then I could transition.
But I’d be broke. On the other hand I could devote all my time to learning Java which’d get me into the job I want to do.
Right now I’m sitting here with a really, really nasty stomach ache, and knowing that I’m not going to be able to eat properly for ages (well, I can eat…..) which would be handy for loosing weight, if I needed to, but for once in my life my weight is pretty much okay.
So, I’ll probably be waif like….
Anyway, I’m off to consider my options….
Kate
