Eeep. Mood swings….
Yesterday I was meant to go to this meal thing with other members of staff (for one of their birthdays. However it being work I’d have had to go as male, and I knew I simply couldn’t hack that. But I’d said I would go!
For the first time ever the fact I get ill when I’m really stressed helped me….I managed to make myself feel (and look) so ill that my colleagues agreed that I probably shouldn’t go. Which was a godsend – because after today I know I simply wouldn’t have coped.
What has happened today? I honestly don’t know. One minute I’m fine, the next I’m verging on tears. It’s insane.
I was going to go and look for some sunglasses today (prescription, as I can’t see otherwise!). But I just couldn’t hack the “excuse me sir, but the majority of mens glasses are over there” line which I got last time I went in.
Instead I ended up spending far too much money on CD’s, and some books – in an attempt to give me something to do today. Unfortunately it’s not worked because I can’t concentrate at all.
The mood swings just make it impossible. And I have no idea what to do to deal with them! Oh well. I guess I’ll just have to cope – but right now that’s pretty hard.
Kate….
