Not *quite* roses.
But my financial situation, on receiving my bank/credit card statement doesn’t seem quite as bleak as it did a few days ago. If I get my NHS Bursary through this, or even next week, then I might actually be able to swing round things so that:
– I’m paying my rent on time
– I’m paying my credit card bill on time
– I can actually buy some food
Which will be important, ‘cos with Nikki and ‘meriKate moving out I won’t be able to get away with going shopping once a month. Which has been really bloody helpful these past few months – just stocking up on the odds and sods I like that they don’t buy (well, they don’t shop at lidl so how could they?! ;-) ).
I’m attempting to coax a friend into giving me their copy of Premiere 6.5 which it appears *will* install on Win2k (contrary to what I thought) – in the hope that it might be able to load the file and render it; obviously though it’ll take a while for that to get to me… so until then I’m going to be frustrated and annoyed. I feel really bad, ‘cos I was just kinda absent from my partner (and everyone else) last night. I felt so good about this video, the way it was originally envisioned – before I started comprimising more and more to try and get round Premiere’s buggy renderer – that finding I couldn’t render it was really distressing.
I’d used it as a way to relax… forgetting how bad Premiere 5.1 actually is. Maybe I’m just using far bigger/better quality/more video than it’s designed to handle. It’s currently rendering a preview of the entire film (not just of the little clippy bits that seemed to be giving it grief) – this means I will at least get to see how it all ties together.
But last night, with the stress of the court case (which I’m sure will be fine, apart from seeing the guy again); the meeting on monday; the whole shit of everything at the moment; it’s just not what I needed. But I doubt me spending the entire evening fighting with Premiere and swearing loudly is what my partner needed. I can be such a lousy self-centred person sometimes.
One of my friends e-mailed me with info about a debt management company (Cheers Rachel) – so if the worst comes to the worst I guess I can talk to them. Problem is my income is well, very close to my standard outgoings:
Fixed, definate income:
750 quid a month
Fixed, definate outgoings:
390 Rent
140 Repayment for loan
100ish quid Credit Card Repayment
12 quid contact lenses
=640 odd quid.
Which theoretically leaves 100 quidish for petrol & food each month. And 2 stroke oil. And anything else.
This month I should get a bit more – if I get the NHS bursary payment through. It’s scary when I look at it like that, because… well.. it’s a lot of money going on nothing tangiable. That’s probably why I feel crap about my finances the whole time.
I’m thinking though, if they let me move half the Regolith Debt to my loan – oh, excuse me, Premiere just crashed; still, it looks really good as a preview (It thought I’d ask it to render again, just for shits and giggles) – I’m really pleased with the way it should come out if I can render it at some point :-/ – anyway, yeah, moving that and maybe my CC debt onto the loan so I’ve got one hopefully smaller payment coming out. And regolith isn’t over my head anymore. That would be really bloody good.
I’ve also been reading (although not this morning) some papers about decision making in nursing – which is cool – starting to get a vague idea about what to write in the essay that’s due in in, uh, 3 weeks.
Found a couple of papers yesterday, but not printed them yet in case they’re ones which they’ve given us in the ‘support pack’. So I guess that’s a full update on me.
