Shitty death

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So, working on a ward specialising in care of the older person (and secondary stroke unit), it isn’t exactly surprising that, well, people die now and then. But coincidence can be a bitch, sometimes.

Yesterday I had two deaths; neither of which were expected at that time. One of which was only half expected at all, really. Sadly, in one case the woman died with no one there; in a place so full of people it’s sad to think you can still die alone. It’s odd, it’s happened so much, but a few days ago I was chatting to her, helping her out of bed, and yeah; now she’s no more. Came as a bit of a shock, somehow.

Anyhow, today 3 people died. One of whom we’d only just recieved (I wasn’t looking after 2 of them, thankfully; otherwise I’d really be feeing attrocious). But I’ve now had 3 deaths of patients I’ve been looking after in 2 days; and one for whom I witnessed the administration of medication 10 minutes before they died. And there’s no question at all, the medication administered didn’t contribute to his death, but still; after the days I’d been having I’m starting to feel paranoid. And it’s not shaken me, but certainly, I’m feeling a little less positive than usual.

On the plus side I had a great chat with the student nurse who’s last day is tomorrow; she said I’d been a great help and she really enjoyed her shifts with me. That and she’s picked up some of my good habits (probably loads of my bad ones too, but the good ones are the ones I’m proud of :-).

Anyway, at least tomorrow is a day off which I intend to spend in a moderately relaxed way.

KateWE

Kate's a human mostly built out of spite and overcoming transphobia-racism-and-other-bullshit. Although increasingly right-wing bigots would say otherwise. So she's either a human or a lizard in disguise sent to destroy all of humanity. Either way, it's all good.