I hate how despite the fact I feel like absolute rat shit, and had to abandon my wife half way through food shopping, and all I’ve done is sit on the sofa the whole rest of the day and I still feel completely wrecked, ringing in sick feels like abandoning my friends and colleagues.

It was easier, at least a little when I wasn’t in charge of the department, but now I worry that some poor sod’s going to have to be in charge all day, which is just an awful day.

It’s that thing of knowing that our staffing been tight recently anyhow, and everyone’s worked really hard to make it work…and here I am making it worse. On the other hand, to return to my primary point: I feel like ratshit.