Last night I was watching a traffic police TV show (yeah, I know, but I was tired) – and in it was the death of (somewhat freakily) a young nurse who, it’d appear, lost control of her car at night in the wet, hit a crash barrier and was spun – the car at that point lost it’s electics, which meant she was sat; in the dark; on a motorway. The car was then hit front on by a van which didn’t see her until too late. And today, I saw this on my friends page – and this too.
These things leave me in a somewhat reflective mood. As I said to Lauren yesterday, since my bike accident I have a somewhat more blase attitude about death. I tend to feel, if it’s your time, it’s your time and there’s not a lot you can do about it. Given how astoundingly lucky I was to survive my accident; I’ve lain in the centre lane of a freeway looking at oncoming headlamps and thought it was my time; I do think how close I came to death. And seeing posts like this, they scare me. More than death itself. Death doesn’t bother me, it’s the pain and suffering left behind.
I’m not sure where I’m going with this. I didn’t know the woman that died (in either case); and the people being hurt by it are at closest LJ friends I’ve not met IRL and have a very poor understanding of, tbh. There you go, there’s a strange thing too, I can see into the lives of people; and they into mine; and I’ve very little idea about who they *actually* are; sometimes it’s an entertaining writing style, sometimes a comment on an LJ post, and I’m drawn into their lives. But my thoughts are certainly with them, losing someone is an incredibly painful thing. Hell, I still think about the friend of mine who died (hit while learning to cross the road, ironically) when I was 6. And I hope those around them give them the support they need.
Hrm. Anyway, I should get back to baking now I’ve got my recipe for Banana cake. I may be depositing cakes all over the place – I appear to have bought the world’s supply of banana (it was cheaper to buy a big bag than guestimate how many bananas I needed. Same with carrots).
