Kara, Kaisa, Trey, Rachel, Cassandra, Morgan….
I’m missing you guys today. Why’d Alaska have to be so bloody far away…
I’m feeling very broken right now; I’m not at home here anymore. Like much of my life – it’s familiar without being home. It’s my house. My place of residence. But it’s not where my heart is. Some of my friends are here, but I’m missing my other friends too; and I…
…I know I’m lonely because I’m single, I know that being single’s never suited me – and equally I know it’s something I need to deal with and learn how to cope on my own. Because otherwise I become far to dependent on another person.
I need to become whole, by myself, before I try this ‘relationship’ stuff again; because otherwise I just suck people into my past. And my past is an untidy, messy place. An untidy messy place which is not a good headspace for me to occupy.
