It’s just one of those days. I guess maybe because I had a really good day yesterday, or thinking about Alaska, or looking through all those AK photos. Or just because it’s about time.
I’m missing Trey. I’m missing Trey a lot, and I’m missing her in the sense of knowing that she’s my ex and that hurts. And I want her back. And I can’t have her. Today is sucking. I feel so sad, knowing… that she doesn’t love me anymore… and yeah. Hurting.
I don’t really want sympathy or cuddles, just want to be left to deal with the loss of my relationship. She asked me a bunch of hard questions on e-mail a few days ago, and I replied, and I’ve had nothing back. I think maybe I’m more fucked up than she realised? Or maybe I just didn’t give her the answers she needed to hear. Either way, I feel sucky.
