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13^th April 2002, 23:57.

I made a terrible, terrible mistake today. But more on that later.

I actually had a really nice day, see, the sun was shining, the birds were –
presumably – singing (there don’t seem to be that many around here – possibly
related to the number of cats). Anyway, so, Jas was off elsewhere and rather
than mope around the house we all piled into the Mog and troddled down to
Weston Super Mare, in a kind of traditional 50’s day out. Well, okay, not
entirely traditional.

I mean, polyamourous lesbian groups probably weren’t a big feature of the
50’s. Or maybe they were…. ;-)

Anyway, so we just spent a cheery day wandering around Weston, which was,
well, nice. I’m sorry to use that terrible word, but it was.

Yes.

Today, also, was my Dad’s birthday. I hope that we’ve got some good news for
him in a few weeks time. I’m not going to say anymore for the time being –
because the only way I’m coping is to only think about things in very small
doses, and only when I’m ready to do so.

So, on to this terrible mistake. I did something very, very stupid. I watched
“The Hollow Man”. Now this film
started badly, I mean, I’ve got a degree in Biochemistry, okay it’s a crap
degree, but it’s still a degree. And within the first, I dunno, minute? two
minutes? I was thinking “oh dear”.

But you really didn’t need a degree to see how bad it was at
portraying the sciency stuff. The errors were so fundamental it was…garrragh.

It was just terrible. The characters were all idiots. The plot had more holes
in than a sieve. God. Argh.

I can’t believe that a film so bad exists. I…I…I’m just
lost for words trying to get across to you how absolutely dire this film was.
Godess. It just defies description.

Imagine if….no. No, that’s not bad enough. Imagine if Ford made films,
okay? And had them directed by a, a, erm, slug? Yes. And the script was
generated by sticking random phrases together from, err, badly translated
russian motorcycle manuals. And it was shot on, hrm, VHS. And then copied 8
times. Yes. That would be about as much fun to watch as “The Hollow Man”. Yes,
the special effects were pretty. I mean, some of them were frankly beautiful –
assuming you’re into human anatomy.

But the plot. Oh god. The story…the characters. The only saving
grace was that I didn’t actually pay, except in the amount of my life I’ve
wasted, to watch this. God, imagine if I’d paid at the cinema….

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12^th April 2002, 18:00

Okay, now this is really a random result, ‘cos I’ve never ever seen Cowboy Bebop, so it was kinda “yeah, that sounds like a good answer”…

Anyway:

Which Cowboy Bebop character are you?

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11^th April 2002, 16:32.

So. Okay.

Erm, sorry? I’m feeling way better. I started to really come out of it last night, and well, today I’m feeling human again. Err, yes.

It’s funny – yesterday I was completely unable to cope with anything, today I’m feeling much better.

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10^th April 2002, 22:11.

Well, what can I say. I can’t say that I’m feeling whole huge bundles of better, but I want to say thanks to chiyo, and to the person who e-mailed me (although that person wasn’t, as far as I’m aware, reading this site – they were just e-mailing me about another topic).

I think I’ve managed to put the demons back away, even if it’s just for the night. It’s still better than having them roaming.

So thankyou.

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8^th April 2002, 17:46.

Didn’t I promise? So… here we are…

A real diary entry….

I’ve spent some of today watching the death of a tv channel, which was kinda
odd – we tried to get them to give us a
plug, but they didn’t, so Nuts to them.

All these presenters who, well, it was a shopping channel, so what they’re
going to go on to do I can’t really imagine. These presenters who were basically
jobless promoting their personal websites and taking the piss out of the
products they were selling – I guess after 4 years of selling mostly shite
there’s got to be a lot of sarcasm waiting to get out…

Anyway, it was a bit strange.

There was something else, oh yes, me being peeved because they’ve been
really annoying with the TV scheduling today. It’s not like there’s much
worth watching on TV (this doesn’t stop me lazily slobbing in front of it, but I
know that mostly what I’m watching is crap) but tonight they’ve put three
programs I want to watch on at once. Grr.

[Enterprise, ‘Fifth Gear’ and Junkyard Wars]

What else? Well we’ve been out postering? Did I mention that before…no,
apparently not. Well, I’ve mentioned it now – we’ve been around the uni area
distributing posters/flyers. Hopefully we’ll manage to get some interest. That’d
be good.

I’m still thinking about how to redo the regolith website. Already you’re
asking – Yes. I like it, but it doesn’t seem to be generating interest. Lots of
hits, but not so much in the way of interest. Although we’ve had a request for a
fairly big quote….

Anyway, so I’ve been having an interesting conversation on IRC – although
I’ll only put in the bits I’ve said:

[KateE] But then I decided when I transitioned that I’d do whatever the fuck I wanted and
sod anyone who says “girls don’t do that”.

[KateE] I spent long enough trying to conform to what people expected of me, now I just
do what I want.

[KateE] So I play with computers, and electronics, and motorbikes and cars….

[KateE] ….it’s not like they can come at me with a pickle jar and a staple gun.

[KateE] it only took me about 18 years to work out that however hard I tried I
was still me underneath.

Anyway, that’ll do.

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7^th April 2002, 23:28.

Okay, I promise the next one will be a real diary update, and not just
another pointless survey….

What do
people say behind your back? Find out @ digitalcharisma

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3^rd April 2002, 15:28.

Well, I guess I missed my chance to do the whole April fools diary entry. Not sure what I’d’ve put on it anyway. Sense of humour failure I guess…

So, a couple more of these tedious quiz things, and then into the main page.

First up it’s the What’s Your Fetish? test at Nollykin’s World

Fiction turns me on. I’m a Hentai freak!

So, that answers that one. Apparently.

Of course that leaves the all important question, what kind of duck am I? Well, I’m now in a position to answer that thanks to the What kind of duck are you test…. Which revealed that:

But one more question remains. One of the questions. What sexual position am I?

Well…

Take the What Sex Position Are You? test by Ley Ley

So, that’s all that over and done with. Bet you’re glad of that. Anyone got any more quizzes?

Anyway, I went to the endo today, which was a cause of much excitement. Well, okay, I was a bit tense. Wondering what he’d say, how my blood tests’d look, whether he felt that the medication I’m on is sensible, and if the doses are sensible.

And so on.

Well, it turned out to be a waste of time, to be quite honest. I wasn’t expecting that much, but he didn’t even bother to do or organise a blood test. So, I’ll have to sort that out. Indeed the topic didn’t even occur to him, at least, if it did he didn’t say anything about it.

I guess I’m just pissed off because, well, I wanted some confirmation that I’m on a decent regime, or that I’m not, but I didn’t get that. And, well, I made up this regime, and I don’t know if it’s sensible. I thought the estrogen doses were a bit high, but he didn’t seem to really have any idea if they were, and what they should be.

Jas has just given me a 1/24^th scale Mini Cooper to race around :-)

Something’s wrong though, because it’s bigger than the BMW Mini Cooper 1/24^th scale remote control cars atop the TV…

I have to note though that “Night dampness is harmful to interior mechansim”. And also, of course, “While thundering avoid playing outside”. I’ll be sure to remember those pearls of wisdom.

Oh, and, in bigger letters than anything else: Antenna should not be inserted into socket outlets.

Grr, this endo thing has really pissed me off, actually. I mean, showing some actual interest in me would have been good, and y’know, maybe letting me finish talking now and then.

*sigh*

What’s the point? That’s the question. I may as well make it up myself. It worked last time.

So, I did an update of the Techie section – bet that’s cheered you up. Now we’ve got a couple of new-old bits in there. I’m considering doing a site update log, but I can’t really be arsed. Again, another thing which hangs around waiting for the major re-write which has all the diary entries in a nice searchable database….

Anyone fancy doing that for me? Thought not… :-)

I’ll get around to it one day. I think though, now, I’m going to have a bath and be annoyed up there…

Grr, I’m still wanting the next chapter in Tuck.

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31/03/02, 11:54

Films lost to the vagueries of VHS:

Making Mr Right

Casual Sex?

The Smallest Show on Earth

The Pope Must Die

Dr Strangelove

Ben Elton’s Stark

Time Bandits

Edward Scissorhands

Dune

She Devil

The Man In The White Suit

Passport To Pimlico

Little Shop of Horrors

Alan Bleasdale – Self-Catering

Earth Girls are Easy

White Goods

Alan Bleasdale – Pleasure

High Spirits

The Battle of the Sexes

Two Way Stretch

Blue Steel

The Ladykillers

Gorky Park

The Running, Jumping and Standing Still Film

The Case of the Mukkinese Battle Horn.

Some Girls

Heavens above

Up the Creek

Only Two Can Play

The Mouse That Roared

Batteries Not Included

Monte Carlo or Bust

The Lavender Hill Mob

Eskimo Day

Rear Window

I Love a Man in Uniform

Mannequin

Bugs Bunny & Road Runner – The Movie

Alan Bleasdale – Requiem Apache

Sneakers

Withnail & I

Drop Dead Fred

Carlton-Browne of the F.O.

Her Alibi

Logans Run

Wilt

Love on a branchline

Some of these are still watchable, but some have failed completely. This is in some cases due to the fact that I couldn’t afford decent videotape when I was younger (Mmm, yum, International Brand, Oh look, it’s an Astor tape….). And to be fair some of these tapes are over 10 years old.

But as you can see, quite a lot of them aren’t available on DVD. I’ve actually spent some time tracking down some others on DVD – to replace failing videotape. Malcolm was one of them….

Only on release in Australia that one….

But early sellers stuff – and ‘not very popular stuff (Wilt for example) is very unlikely to come out on DVD….so I’ll have to wait and then capture it off tv…..not that it’s exactly shown often.

Those that are on DVD, I guess I’d have bought eventually – but it’s annoying that the videos have packed up….

16:38

Wow, I’ve got an original AcornSoft Aviator poster…..

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24^th March 2002, 1941.

So, I found this link on Amy’s site, for the which Angelina are you test….

And this here is the response…

Which Angelina

Are You?

Hrm, now you see I want a comments section, but Amy was too lazy (joke, joke! don’t kill me ;-) to write me some comment-code stuff (what’s that you say? Why should amy write it? Aren’t you just being incredibly lazy? Yes, I am. And amy moaned about it’s absence so…well, that’s my excuse) – so I can’t see all of you disagreeing with it.

What’s that?

You don’t disagree with it?

I can’t hear you….damn my laziness!

Anyway, so, Complicated person? Me? I think you’re thinking of someone else there….

Trouble letting others in. Okay, that I’ll accept. On the other hand once someone’s been let in, they’re kind of allowed free range, which is either a good thing or a bad thing depending…

“You focus most of your energy on your work” – well, it depends what my work is. If it’s something I enjoy, then sure, yes I do. If it a job I hate then it’ll get as little of my energy as I can give it.

You keep your uniform on all the time? I don’t have a uniform, although that seems to disappoint some people. And no, I don’t look like Habib, and no, I won’t wear a police-woman’s outfit. No. so :-P

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Kate E