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05/28/2002 Archived Entry: “Erm, still not good at subjects”

There’s a problem here, which is that I’m bloody awful at titling things. I mean, the name of this site came from remarks made by lots of people over several years – prior to that it wasn’t exactly wildly imaginative. Anyway.

That wasn’t what I was intending to ramble about – because, well, it just wasn’t okay :-)

Sorry, I’m not really awake – I know it’s 17:34 and I really should be awake by now – only I ended up sleeping through, well 3-5pm-ish, just because I was so tired. I dunno why really – I got around 6-7 hours of sleep last night – although it was a bit interrupted and I had had something to drink – celebrations and all that.

Unfortunately I woke up this morning with a hang over – after drinking….wait for it, wait for it…an *entire*, yes, that’s one *whole* *glass* of white wine and 2 sidekicks. I dunno what’s up with that. It’s ridiculous.

Christ, I used to not-wake-up-with-a-hangover after vastly more than that drinks wise. One glass of wine a day is meant to be *healthy* ffs.

Hrumph.

Anyway, so, I’m slowly starting to wake up….

…now I’ve been awake for, ooh, 30 minutes. I did actually get up early today (8:45) to get “stuff” done – sorting out the ETZ251, insurance, jobs, broken printer, driving licence, colour of Naidenka (which, incidentally, is for sale if anyone’s interested), and sorting out a job for a few weeks…

Which I’ve done. Well, the job is only partially sorted out.

Christ, I’m tired.

Well, I’m now just sort of waking-up-after-sleeping-during-the day tired.

I can tell you’re all wondering if this diary entry is actually going to go anywhere or just ramble on and on without actually doing anything. Well, to be fair to you I can’t really tell. You could give up now – and save yourself the hastle of reading possibly another few paragraphs of complete garbage, or you could read on and maybe something interesting will happen – I might suddenly discover that I don’t actually exist, which you can be sure would lead to some interesting commentry.

I really shouldn’t write these things when I’m not properly awake should I? I’ve completely lost track of what it is I was going to say – and I, well, have not the faintest clue where I’m going with this.

Hrm. Yes.

Read more bits of Alyssa’s site again today. There was more, but I’m too tired to verbalise it. Well, not verbalise, ‘cos I’m writing it down. Feeling strangely quiet. Anyway, Alyssa’s one of the few people I know off the internet that I haven’t already met that I’d like to meet. Which doesn’t sound like much of a compliment, I guess, but it is meant to be a compliment. I’m just too tired to [finish sentances] do anything thought related. I shouldn’t be this tired. Maybe it is the boiler. Still, I’ve got someone coming to fix that tomorrow – so there shouldn’t be any more Carbon Monoxide.

I have this effect on boilers, the one at Uni decided to produce CO while I was there too.

Sorry, rambling again.

This room needs doing. This *house* needs doing, but this room is getting to me. It’s opressive. Actually, so is the lounge. I also feel that vague “I want my stuff” feeling – but there’s no-where to put it. [used to living out of boxes].

I have this kind of internal monologue, along with the Soundtrack To My Life. Actually, in recent years, the soundtrack to my life has kinda switched off, except when I’m desperately trying to be cheerful. Anyway, this internal monologue which sometimes comes out with stuff I really don’t want to think. It’s strange. I sometimes wonder if other people have it. Do you?

Hrm, the laserjet just went “whirrr” – as it does occasionally and dragged me back out of my own brain.

Probably for the best.

Sometimes it worries me that I think these thoughts. Sometimes I beat myself up for days, weeks over things which have popped up in my head with no warning.

Anyway, I should probably shut up.

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05/27/2002 Archived Entry: “Bike test…”

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed! I passed!

[Grin][Big grin][Huge fuck-off grin]

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

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Woohoo! Really glad to hear that. *Offers you a mouse*

Posted by lonecat @ 05/29/2002 10:22 AM GMT

Way to go! dancing rodents! adulation of the masses ^_^

We knew you could

we didn’t even have to bribe the examaner very much

Posted by Kathy @ 05/28/2002 02:12 AM GMT

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05/27/2002 Archived Entry: “Oooh. I forgot to mention.”

One minor fault. One. How’s that for improvement? [grin]

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05/26/2002 Archived Entry: “New Shiny Equipment…”

Yes, yes, I gave in. We went to a computer show and I now have a shiny new Hansol 710P monitor. Mmmm.

I know I shouldn’t have, and I’m really far to broke to go buying these things but the little 15″ monitor was beginning to get on my nerves. Now we have a decent refresh rate and a decent size screen – which is nice. So.

Yes.

And I don’t feel terribly guilty.

It’s got that “nice new equipment” smell to it.

Okay, so I do feel horribly guilty – but once again my machine is actually back up to “nice”. For a 300 quid, 3 year old PC it’s not doing to badly. Okay, so it’s not the quickest thing off the mark – a 400MHz K6-2 – but it’s certainly fast enough for what I use it for (serving webpages, e-mail, webbrowsing, music playing). It’ll even *almost* do software DVD playing – it’ll almost do it under windows (if I reinstalled it), and it’ll almost do it under Linux :-)

Of course, I’ve just realised this means my computers page is out of date again. Never mind.

Yes.

Anyway, tomorrow is my bike test – and as you might have guessed I’m horribly nervous about it. I keep reminding myself that Carol felt I was good enough to pass when I stopped riding on Friday – so I should be able to get up to scratch on Monday without too much trouble.

I’m still terrified.

Gah.

I hate exams.

I hate all exams. I’m actually feeling that stressy-sick that I tend to feel – which has been washing over me now and then since I booked the test (you know, think about test, wave of nausea). I’m also feeling fairly hormonal – you know that “doesn’t play well with others” bit of the month – which is not really the optimum state to be in for a test. One of my main problems with the bike test is I make one mistake and then I get stressed by that – and ride along berating myself for my mistake which means I’m not concentrating as hard as I should be and then I make another mistake.

Grrr.

I’m very carefully trying to *not* let that happen this time. There was a time, while we were practicing where I was going round and round and round this one block, and I kept *repeatedly* fucking up this one junction – and I was getting more and more pissed off with myself – culminating in me starting to curse myself – which until I managed to just forget about it and concentrate on not making the mistake (which is related to 7 years of driving a car…) I kept making.

Anyway.

And now I can say, I can see why the 4 stroke bikes are better test bikes – but I wouldn’t *ever* want to have to use a 4 stroke 125 as my only bike.

Well, I’d consider the MZ RT125, but apart from that.

Anyway. Convincing myself that I will pass seems like a good idea.

I need to go and get some peat-substitute for the garden. We have several million plants which need planting. Yes, I really *am* doing gardening, and you’ll soon be able to relive the highs and lows of my gardening experience when I get some photos developed ;-)

Anyway. That’s it.

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05/25/2002 Archived Entry: “I’m not very good at these subject thingies am I?”

So,

Bike test on monday.

Yes. So. Trying to divert myself from that and sadly noting the semi-demise of TOTL.net. But I still had time to take their vitally important Human Virus Scanner. The results of which are below…

The virus that have infected you will be show here along with thier cures, if known.

Viruses you suffer from:

TotL: Go read Brunching

Linux: Install the latest version of Microsoft Windows. Learn to love it.

Junkfood: Eat some real food. Something which you can identify the source of every ingredient, not the point of manufacture.

BBCB: CTRL-Break, and get a real computer.
Repeat: “Mode 7 was not a good thing.”

8-Bit: Polygons, all the polygons you can get are not enough.

British: No need for cure. Benign virus.

Discordia: Buy a suit. Invest your money. Eat hotdog buns on a friday.

Windows: Try MacOS X. It’s based on UNIX, it has a smoother UI than Windows and it doesn’t suck. As an extra feature the boxes look nice.

vi: Escape Meta Alt Control Shift.

Free BSD: The GPL isn’t that bad really. Adopt a penguin at the zoo.

Politics: Stop caring!

Computer Games: Stop staring at the screen and get some fresh air. You should see a doctor about the RSI in your thumbs.

Conspiracy Theory: Face it, the elected government is in control. Actually that’s quite scary.

Environmentalism: Consume more stuff! It’s easier to buy new stuff than to recycle.

Macintosh: Use a mouse with more than one button.

Viruses you might suffer from:

USA (70%): Rule, Britannia! Britannia rule the waves! [repeat]

Amiga (80%): Gnome is better than workbench. BEOS is better than Amiga OS. The TV Modulator was a pain in the arse and an EXTERNAL power pack? I ask you. And it didn’t have a built in MIDI port like some of its rivals.

Religion (60%): Read “God’s Debris” by Scott Adams (yes, the Dilbert guy)

UNIX (80%): Anything this old must be obselete. Go and install a nice modern operating system. I hear MSDOS has come a long way lately.

Sci-fi (60%): Stop wearing the stick-on ears.

Brand Names (90%): Having a well-known name doesn’t make it good.

X11 (60%): I hear Mac OS 10 Aqua is nice at this time of year.

Hippyism (93%): Free love is passe and potentially dangerous, and patchouli smells like cat piss.

So there you go. I feel much better for that. Anyway, I’m off out to the garden centre :-)

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05/25/2002 Archived Entry: “Argh.”

AAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

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05/23/2002 Archived Entry: “Home….”

So, yesterday I went back to my parents for the day (fairly common with me, I go back a lot of weekends). Anyway, I got some wonderful news, my dads primary tumour has shrunk “a bit”. With the chemo therapy working on the secondaries and his own immune system starting to work on the primary tumour it really gives me some hope.

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05/23/2002 Archived Entry: “Tea…”

Tea and toast.

The perfect combination.

Even if I did have to go out to buy the bread – although it was strangely appropriate that the bread was mouldy – since this is my old university midnight-4am treat.

Mind you, making tea in the microwave sucks. You get this scum on the surface of the tea….

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05/21/2002 Archived Entry: “Knackered….”

I’ve done an incredible amount of walking today – so much that I can’t actually be bothered to fix the configuration problem with the comment posting stuff. Just want to sleep. Considering bath and bed right now.

I’m also feeling significantly more broke. 300 quid on a service, a new distributor and 2 new tyres. I don’t know why they did the 6k mile service instead of the 3k mile service, probably sensible given the car’s just been on the road after 7 years off, but still.

And I just had a look at my bank account. Boy am I screwed (this is not a joke by the way). I *have* to get some work *now*. Only there’s a problem with that – I don’t have a job. I’ve not heard anything from this agency – which is annoying. I guess it’s literally go out and do something shitty.

I was hoping to go out and do courier work after my bike test, indeed that may be what I do – but if I fail then it’ll be courier work in a van. Woohoo. ‘cos I’m not doing supermarket checkout/shop work. And it seems that office work is a little thin on the ground.

I really shouldn’t have bought the magazine today. I shouldn’t have bought *anything* today.

Crap, crap, crap. I really didn’t expect it to be so much.

My mum even commented on my ‘run of bad luck’ today – Monitor dead, car damaged, car broke down, no jobs…..*sigh*. I think I might just go and flake out. Skip bath, go straight to bed.

I know I’m tired and that’s making things seem worse than they are. Incidentally, I’ve reinstalled licq – but I’ve got a new UIN. So if you want it, give me a shout….

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New UIN? Didn’t know you had an old one, but, gimme!

And I’ve changed the layout of my site again, you inspired me :)

Posted by amy @ 05/22/2002 11:22 AM GMT

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05/20/2002 Archived Entry: “*sigh*”

So, in the last few days let’s see what’s gone wrong:

• My car broke down.
• My car was hit by someone while it was parked who didn’t leave a name/contact address.
• As a follow up from that, my car needs a new bumper and a new rear wing
• I’ve just spent an entire morning battling with an O’Dixion CD printer which refuses to print in the same place on the CD every time (it’s just printing in random places) and a Mac which kernel panics and refuses to restart.
• My 17″ monitor has died, leaving me stuck with a good, but not as nice 15″ monitor

Would anything else like to go wrong?

One good thing did happen today though, I got an e-mail from James, which made me smile….