14/11/01, 04:15
The problem is I get tense, or more, a muscle I don’t yet have control over gets tense, which makes me tense, which at some subconcious level makes the muscle more tense, which mhkes it ache more, which makes me more tense…….
All this means that I’ve just taken some coproximol – which will hopefully kill the pain, thus stopping the loop. I hope.
14/11/01, 20:17
Well, the catheter comes out tomorrow, and, I’m sore – the catheter has been driving me nuts all day. Really, really incredibly annoying. It’s driving me up the wall!
If it had come out this morning that’d’ve been fine, but no. It comes ont
tomorrow – and it must be said – I’m tense as hell about it…..
The other thing that’s bugging me is this bizarre sensation – before the op,
on the rare occasions that I got an erection (not that I ever managed to get one
which would have been of use to anyone….), there was a certain amount of
discomfort – like muscle fatigue like pain. And I keep getting that at the
moment. I’ve not had it for most of the day but for much of last night the pain
was there – and coproximol didn’t touch it at all.
I don’t know what was causing it – or if it’s normal – but it was sodding painful last night.
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Kate E