I really feel like I’ve let down my mum on this; it’s not anything that I can really say is my fault, but just… I was meant to be taking her into Newbury for an appointment, which we had to cancel because I’d not got a car that worked. And I said at the time that I’d get there and we’d head in before she got married.
I didn’t, because I’ve still not got a car.
If I’d’ve spent 25 quid on the V5 for the DAF earlier, I’d’ve had it back by now, and would – to some extent – have a car.
But worse; for me at least; is that I was meant to be providing the car to take my mum to the register office for her wedding. In my head I had Rebecca with some cream ribbon from the bonnet flash up to the front windows. Washed and even polished, to make her the shinest she can be. My mum’s given me so much over the years and it was a little something to give back…
…and it looks like Rebecca won’t be ready for the wedding. The engine is still not back, I can’t say I’m exactly impressed. It’s not the fault of JLH – but the guy’s had the money for the engine, it was paid for in advance, and it’s been over a month. The crank’s still not been reground, and therefore my car while complete in every other regard is completely lacking in engine.
I feel like I’m letting my mum down. Hell, as it stands we’ll have to get a lift to my mum’s house from Paramito (her fiance), and back on the of the wedding, or the day after. Unless the DAF’s V5 appears. Since I only sent off for the V5 a week and a half ago it seems unlikely (they say 4 – 6 weeks, and I’m suspecting that Joan, the previous owner, isn’t going to be lightning fast returning the ‘I sold the car’ letter).
The bike’s showing the usual symptoms of warm-weather unhappiness; it’s top speed was down around 45 today. I just feel a bit like I suck, really. Which is an unfair damning of myself, but… money’s a big stressor at the moment, and because of that I’ve not been able to see as much of Kathryn as I want to, and… oh, it’s all just a bit of a problem at the moment. It’s being a lot of hard work, and I don’t feel like I’ve achieved anything much.
Anyway, bed now, because Kate’s have to get up at 5:30am.
