12/11/01, 09:12
I’m so scared of losing my dad. I know I need to be positive, but it’s so hard knowing what I do. I love my dad so very much and losing him just after I finally let both my parents back in….
I keep telling myself he’s not going to die – but the cancer is so bad. I always thought I had years left. I couldn’t imagine a world without them, and now I’m having to. It feels very selfish to say about me when it’s him that’s ill.
But I know I’m not just thinking about me.
12/11/01, 19:24
Well, today seemed to be going quite well until a little while ago when it became apparent that the infection which caused me to have to come home with a catheter has decided to have another go at me.
I’ve actually been quite up and about today – but this has actually forced me to take some painkillers (coproximol) – which are making me very woozy – and my GP has prescribed some Trimethoprim – to try and kill the infection….we just caught him at the surgery…..
So I’m drinking gallons of water and trying to relax because ot the moment my entire body is tense……
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Kate E