Mostly lemon based
Kate's somewhat eclectic journal
December 12, 2024
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- 'n I don't mind paying them
- *grump*
- …add me to the me either list….
- 1300
- 2013
- 2015
- a frequent misconception
- acorn
- Acorn Posse
- actually fucking exhausted
- afp
- ah the happy whistle of the 1200 baud modem
- all I need is compound interest
- all of them
- all the time
- also fucked up
- also slightly odd
- also wanted to _be_ her
- although an even more accurate statement is I was not previously owned by a cat
- although I'm thinking birthday unending.
- although it wasn't the worst house we looked at
- although it's not actually a chrysler
- although the alien-b one has perhaps the worst video I've seen for a song for a long time
- although the quality's fucking awful on our telly
- although traditionally in my friend group toast is also required for best performance when installing software or hardware
- amazon suckage
- ancient computers
- And 56K modems were fast!
- and a little hole in the wall
- And all these people thought cake was real.
- and cryogenics
- and days
- and dismount the soapbox
- and eating
- and frankly fuck labour too
- and honey==good for colds
- and how can we stop them
- and I can be pretty damn lazy
- and I don't really like wearing clothes anyway
- and I had a great holiday
- and I never thought it was that much fun
- and i really hate stopping in the middle of a book
- And I'm post nightshifts goddamnit
- and i'm studiously failing to stick to it
- And I've no idea what I called my poor battered Dell laptop
- And in Britain we're still running the same trains as were out when my morris minor was built
- and in multiple languages
- And it's the damn car I've wanted for years
- and less sofa
- and more enthusiasm
- and more intelligent
- and my old PC (long gone) was 'Bursar'
- And our fastest passenger jet also came out that same year
- and perception of the world is largely what we make it
- And pixies
- And scandalous
- and screw anyone who says otherwise
- and shelter
- and the blinkenlights
- and the liberal demoncrats
- And then someone pointed this out
- and they were playing a 1960s BBC session
- and time
- and we love it
- And while I was writing this I got the mail saying she still had my size in stock
- AndStopWithFucingUsAround
- angst
- anyone else remember leaping up to flick the channel selector to get it back in tune
- apparently
- Apparently 'text-decoration: blink' is right out too
- ArchaicTechnology
- arseholes of the world
- as I say at work
- as is adulting
- as is sleeping
- ashamed of britain
- asks if you wants
- at least most of the time
- at least that's my excuse
- at the most exciting bit
- at work
- audiophiles
- austin
- austin amy america
- backhanded compliments
- bad friends
- bad geek
- BBC Micro FTW
- beautiful
- because frankly it is one
- because it was a long time ago
- because it'll be fucking awesome
- because laundry
- because obviously it's all real…
- because she was so cool
- being ruined by that moffat pillock
- benedict cumberbatch is clearly an arsehole
- bingewatching
- bit steep
- Bloody UKIP
- bloodytechnology cheapcrapbeingcrap
- BMC
- brains are funny things
- British childhood was f'kin' scary
- broken things are broken
- but at least you wouldn't have long to think about it
- but I never watched it long enough
- but I'm less fucked up and less lazy now :)
- but it is pretty dodge
- but it worked out fine
- but it's ours
- but obviously the minor is better
- but the plants
- But then he was always a rebel
- but then I love vinyl
- but then it just crashes
- but then that's normal
- but there's more
- But they don't have hard discs
- butbooks
- car
- ccde
- chicago
- cinema women
- classic car
- comedy and music
- commands
- computer geekery
- computing
- cos its dirty grey communist concrete y'see
- course back then all this was fields
- crafty
- creativity
- crosspost
- croudsource healthcare ftw
- cute but insane
- damn ethics
- damn lies
- damn other people
- depending on the moment
- designfail
- Did I mention fuck the conservatives
- did I mention I hate hayfever?
- disappointed
- disappointed in the UK
- DIWhy
- diy
- do doo do doooo
- Doctor who
- DRM is evil
- Either that or I'm just weird
- epub
- even if it's only a little plan
- evil swines
- except that its bloody cold without them
- exhausted
- extechnical-writer pain
- faceless old woman who secretely lives in your home for mayor
- fail
- fails
- fancy a job?
- ffs
- food
- food production
- for a moment
- for a while I just thought nobody loved me
- framework
- freudian slip there…
- fundrasing for timetravel
- gah
- garden
- gardening
- gardening with enthusiasm
- geek
- general crazyness
- getting in the way
- gnu terry pratchett
- go stick your head in a pig
- goddamnit clothes
- good design saves lives
- goodbye NHS
- got the morbs
- growing
- grumble
- grumble grumble
- hackery
- Hahahaha
- hate them all
- health
- heeeeeelp me
- hell yes
- help me obi wan tumblr
- her serious writing is awesome too
- heteropriviledge
- hey mould
- historical women
- homan square
- hoping that I've not just painted our walls with mould
- house
- houses are hard
- housetribulations
- how do people people
- how very dare they
- hypercritical
- I admit it I'm weak
- I also need to watch this again
- I always feel pixies will help with computers when its going like this.
- I always feel so bad but they look so interesting
- I am concerned when we move to the states the container of music we send will cause sea level rise
- I appear to have misplaced all the words.
- I Could Just Murder A Tea
- I could relax in the garden
- I expect that'd help
- I had got myself all geared up for a super dull car
- I hate my brain
- I have got so much vinyl recently
- I imagine that'll go well
- I imagine you are too
- I just need two of me
- I kind of wish the board had been dead so that it got replaced.
- I love it when a plan comes together
- I may have gone too far
- i mean i have tea
- i mean they are historical artefacts that've fallen back in time through a wormhole
- i mean who needs clothes
- I never named the BBC Master or Micro
- I quite like first gent tho
- I really hope we can pull this off
- I really wish she'd write a book about it
- I remember when all this was fields
- I should scan them so others can make them into new pads
- i still swear that cat was insane
- I suddenly need to redesign the entire bathroom
- I suppose.
- I swear that's what they said at nurse school
- I would entirely watch all of those alternative queer movies.
- I would watch the hell out of them.
- I'd use the graphical filer
- I'd've been well off in 1945
- I'll have to play love shack if I buy one
- I'm allowed to eat whatever shit I want
- I'm quite fond of breathing
- I'mNotPaidEnoughForThisShit
- I'm vacillating between yes and no
- I've no idea why
- I've not baked any bread tho
- icq
- ideal starter home
- idiots
- IdontThinkTheyGetTechnology
- If I'd not been allergic to the country I'd happily live there.
- if I'd not had two cups today I'd have another…just 'cos coffee
- if the NMC are watching
- important though
- in fact it looks like most western government policies are covered.
- in the local language
- in the middle of the film
- in the rain
- in the sense of it's the start of a home.
- incidentally thanks go to David Cameron for my nth successive year of paycuts
- include
- insanity will rule
- instead of clothes
- instead of competence
- internalised transphobia
- is the world getting more scary or is it me?
- is this me getting old?
- it is a dangerous path
- it used to be 'Bijou Cinema' but it got upgraded
- It would be utterly hilarious
- it'd be cruel to send them back
- it'd save some painting
- it's ace
- it's also the size of a behamouth
- it's fun
- it's lighter than my first portable computer though
- it's post nights so I'm allowed to be flaky
- it's totally not the booze thinking
- it's weird to look at modern cars
- it's yummy too
- itputsthelotioninthebasket
- itputsthelotiononitsskin
- its only a small roof in the hole
- joy of nursing
- joyofnursing
- joys of night shifts
- joys of nursing
- just a little
- just a little work
- just don't tell the nhs you're american
- just incredible
- just please
- just wait until we build our own place
- kids in the hall
- kinda rambled there
- laptop
- lgbtq
- lies
- like when I was listening to digital radio via my squeezebox on the bush valve radio
- Linux
- linux expo
- lucas prince of darkness
- lying little turds
- mad landlords
- Mainly 'broken'.
- matriline
- may be a bit sleep deprived
- may be slightly misjudging that
- may the ray cats keep us safe
- maybe it got better later
- mechanisation
- media server
- michael gove
- mind that might be quite handy
- mmm coffee
- Mnyum
- modern food is terrible
- modern world
- More crashing on a spare bed.
- moronmoments
- music
- music should be loud
- my condolences
- My dad used to mix curry powder into the tomato sauce
- my god the revelations.
- my mother had a wild life
- my mum has some hilarious stories
- My sense memory for these sounds is so
- my whole life I've been angsting over this
- my wife doesn't know either…
- nanowrimo
- network
- networking
- never mind
- nightshift
- nightsshit
- NLCEX
- no really
- no really I love working nights
- not just a bit
- not necessarily a good plan
- not that I don't love it
- note to self
- now have to spend another night trying to book the damn flights
- Now I have the answer
- Now I'll go and watch some of ace to make things better
- obviously
- obviously that's not my professional advice
- oh look another reason to leave
- oh the cable joy
- oh yeah
- old car parts
- Old Site
- only funnier
- oooh
- or at least blurry and green.
- or even if you step it up and require a hob-nob.
- or just sell copies of them on post-it notes
- or lavender
- or maybe a kind of toothpaste
- or not
- or possibly Pro-Death
- or some other spacial anomaly…
- or the middle ages if you see our spice cupboard
- or they'll come make you love Norway
- Or Waland. Seems more apt.
- or weird /and/ tired
- orphan black
- OrphanBlackHasRuinedPrettyMuchAllOtherTelevision
- our perhaps paper for visiting dignitaries
- p'raps I should finish it
- pain of humanity
- pallets
- pen thieves
- perfect
- perhaps I should mention the heist on other social media too
- perhaps it's a dance
- pittsburgh
- plants
- Please don't be dead
- please let Dr Who be demoffated
- pointless soldering
- police brutality
- politics
- positivity outweighing competence
- Pshhhkkkkkkrrrrkakingkakingkakingtshchchchchchchchcch*ding*ding*ding*
- pumpkin
- really a lot
- really damn loud
- really I should go find another Colourstar
- ReallyWishTheWorldWouldBeABitNicer
- recycling
- relaxing
- remote health tourism ftw
- renovation
- right now
- right that's out of my system now
- Right!
- RISC OS
- RiscPC
- Saw that coming
- schools
- scribbles
- scrivener
- seconded
- seriouslyAmazon WTF
- shades is rocking the gyproc
- She's been dead over 130 years…
- Since it turns out that you have a similar level of luck with it as you do with cheap shite
- sleep is for the weak
- so it should all be okay
- so strong.
- so that was fun
- So uh
- sometimes
- sometimes (frequently) I don't wear matching underwear
- sometimes I think I should live in a tent with no electronics
- Sometimes I'm forced to consider the possibility that I'm lazy
- sometimes the world is a deeply depressing place
- sometimes the world sucks
- Sorry
- specialists
- spectacularly
- Squeezebox
- statistics
- Still it'll teach you not to buy expensive hardware
- Still so long as it's not as bad as me getting into Canada
- story
- student life
- sucking
- SysAdmin
- t'ain't pretty but it's a pretty good hospital
- tatiana maslany
- taxes are unfun
- tech
- tedious mysoginist
- tedious winter virii
- thankfully I'm not famous
- thanks brain this is such fun
- that is how I visited Canada the first time
- that may not have been the best decision
- that moment when you just know you need tea and a chocolate digestive
- that needed a small crane to lift it and came with a donkey and trap to transport it…
- that was pretty damn cool
- that worked well
- That would be fucking-A
- that's actually a pretty good product idea
- that's an approximation
- that's definitely a possibility
- that's enough day now
- The displacement caused by building a special music-shipping-boat large enough for my collection may cause norfolk to drown
- The entire purpose of money is for good food
- The great queer film collection
- the laptop is 'ShinySmall'
- the latter's a bit of a pain to say
- the media server is 'Electric Cinema'
- The paint looked okay though
- the RiscPC is 'Amnesia'
- then it'd look bloody amazing
- Then sometimes I realise it's no mere possibility
- then sometimes I remember how much I like my electronics
- ThereIsOneProblemThough
- these are important questions
- these people terrify me too
- they clearly want to be with us
- They seemed to think I wouldn't leave
- they shall rot in an electronic hell
- they want to come home with me.
- they're way to complicated
- this is all less fun than I remember
- This is both fascinating and cool
- this time we will have an adventure
- though I grant I was pretty damn lazy
- time for sleep
- time off is for the weak
- to which I replied: So is money and you won't be getting any of mine
- together
- tory boy
- trans
- transgender
- transition day
- transport evolved
- truth
- try it
- tumblr discoveries
- ubuntu
- uh so err yes
- uk election
- unlike my school teachers
- upcycling
- us justice system
- us news
- very loud
- victorian slang ftw
- video
- vintage computing
- vinyl
- viri are the worst
- visa USA
- we call it a marriage anyway
- we didn't rent that one
- we have a plan
- we loved the blinkenlights
- we'll just fill or shipping container with it
- well crashes more quickly
- well obviously.
- Well slightly less spy thriller
- Whatever you prefer
- when asking people if they've been vaccinated or are pro-disease
- when I'm grown up I'm not going to work nights
- when Palin said 'Drill baby drill' is this what she was referring to?
- which adds a creepy dimention to CPR training
- which is why the US needs more snarky British nurses
- which it turns out is that QC at Apple had gone to ratshit when your computer was built
- who are these rightwing nutcases
- who largely thought I was useless and lazy
- why brain why
- why can't mine look like that?
- Why can’t people just let other people people.
- windows
- wine
- with the water running off the car and into my eyes
- women being awesome
- wonder if I could get it to do the prep work
- world news
- writing
- wtf
- xkcd is in my head
- Yay it's Christmas
- yes
- yes it is
- you don't want to wake me up before a night shift
- you know the real reason I'm moving to the US
- you must
- You must save her!
- you wouldn't like me very much
- your computer has restarted because of a problem