Packed full of green badness

I have clearly caught some revolting child-related lurgee ;-)

I’ve managed to pick up a cough, a cold and a sore throat. I don’t feel *really* lousy yet, but I can tell it’s working on it, and some of the stuff coming out of me is *revolting*. Is that too much information?

Anyway, last night I finished [I hope] the next in the Issigonis Eggs videos. This one however is, uh, a bit big. It’s 23 minutes long, as it stands, and you won’t believe how much stuff I cut and ditched. Anyway, it’s being uploaded for checking by my co-conspiritor and main presenter; if it’s passed then it’ll move onto the ‘published’ phase of existence.

Interstella 5555 (The 5tory of the 5ecret 5tar 5ystem)

So, when I was living with Ais she introduced me to the Daft Punk album Discovery (I did like Daft Punk already, but didn’t have the album); and she told me that there was a film (being) made which featured the same blue people as in the videos…

….I bought that film, and it is really just that; it’s an extended hour and a bit music video featuring the blue people from the videos for “one more time”, and it works incredibly well. There’s no speech, to speak of, in the film, and it’s phenominal how well the album tells the story. It’s sort of remeniscent of Ulysees 31 (for those who remember such things) in style. I can’t really think of anything really intelligent to write about it; but hey, if you like Daft Punk and liked the blue-people videos for their songs then you’ll probably like Interstella 5555. Also, it was only a tenner from Fopp on DVD.

Warning: The Approaching Video is Unfeasibly Long

At just shy of 25 minutes, this excessive piece of video created by me, Nikki, and our group of mad people who put up with us, well, it’s so long that I’m going to leave it to render overnight, and then view it in the morning. I’m praying I’ve edited it okay; why? Because at 25 minutes it’s too long for me to sit and watch it though now, at half twelve at night….. So I hope it’s okay, otherwise I’ll have to re-edit and re-render it tomorrow. I should be asleep.

America….it just scares me.

So:

– You have a president who you know took power despite losing
– You have a president who has repeatedly lied to the people
– You have a president who is reactionary and has alienated the entire rest of the world from your country
– You have a president who is a fundamentalist christian, who wishes to inflict his beliefs on the rest of the world
– You have a president who has run the economy completely into the ground, with a staggering budget defecit and phenominal unemployment rates
– You have a chance to be rid of the man

It appears, as things stand, that America as a whole has done something I feared; I feared it quite simply because I rather like the idea of humans surviving on this planet. And what has America, as a whole, done? It appears at the moment, that you’ve re-elected the lying, cheating, unpleasant little individual and his bunch of cronies for another 4 years of planet and culture destruction.

Why? How can you trust him?

I’ve never been that bothered about American elections before, and I’m amazed at how distressing I find the fact that the American people have actually chosen to elect him. Fundamentalist Christianity is imho, no better than any other fundamentalist religion. I am saddened that America believes it is.

This better be good….

I made an appointment for uh, councelling today.

I kinda always presumed that I could cope with whatever life throws at me, and to an extent, I think I can. But I think if I’m going to deal successfully with my dad’s deteriorating condtition (it’s so hard to be scared, because he’s been so ill so many times. And each time it suddenly strikes me that this could be it and then I get scared….), the whole ‘kid thing’, and the various other issues I’ve got in my history; well; maybe someone to talk to would be good.

So. Yes. I’m incredibly nervous about it, I’ve never had councelling before – although I did look at it when my dad was diagnosed. So, well, yeah, we’ll see. Hey guys, I’m in therapy ;-)

Still, maybe this counts as taking care of myself, something my friends repeatedly tell me I don’t do enough of.

Anyway, I should get back to working.

It Fits

Dashboard [partially] fitted [oil pressure gauge and clock not connected]. Await news on whether it all works…. and the video.

So if you don’t know…

I can’t have kids. It’s just the way it is. I can’t, probably never could, have known for a few years that I can’t have kids. Partially my own choice to move from “unlikely” to “never going to happen”; but the choice was “health problems” or “kids”, and health problems won.

I’ve just spent the past 4 days with kids.

4 days.

I can’t deal with it, as Nikki discovered when I rang her in tears from outdside where I was meant to be. I’ve got to spend another 14 weeks doing this. I can’t cope. I have to talk to my mentor and say “this is not possible, I can’t deal with it”.